Saturday, March 8, 2014

Lucky

I guess I could say this winter has been unlucky. The weather (as many probably agree) has been awful and gone on forever. And then there's this surgery I had to have last month for the third time. It was a sucky surgery that if I describe too much tends to make people a little squeamish. It takes up to a year to fully heal. Daddy says he's not sure he could go through it. Even the doctor has apologized several times that I had to go through it again.

I could keep whining about how much it hurt and how there was little I could do to ease the pain. How even now I still have more bad days than good and there's still a lot I can't do. I could complain about all the restrictions that the evil doctor has placed on me. No strenuous activities. No spanking (well not doctor's exact words but 'bending over' is considered a no-no). And only 'very gentle sexual activity' is permitted.

I could keep hurting over the friend who betrayed me before this all began. The one I once considered super close. The one I saw through so many of her own ordeals who can't even take the time to do something small like a Facebook 'like' that the surgery went well.

I could keep going on here (and trust me I have). Daddy says I'm due for one very big spanking very soon.

But the truth is I'm very lucky. I'm beyond blessed that they could do this surgery again. That it was truly a gift I'll never be able to repay. That what's wrong can be fixed and is healing nicely. I'm happy to be past the worst of the pain. That even though there are bad days, the good hours and good days are steadily increasing and I now can do more than I could before the surgery.

I've been lucky that despite the weather outside, I didn't see much of it this winter. For all I knew, it could've been 80 degrees and sunny (and I tried to imagine it was). And now that I'm getting better, the forecast is looking good.

I'm also very grateful for the many wonderful people who did so many wonderful things over the past few months. Bringing food, baking birthday cakes, calling, sending cards, texting...  Even here in blogland where nobody even knows my name, there have been so many kind comments and e-mails and from the bottom of my heart. Thank You! I can't even begin to express how much they've meant.

Most of all I feel lucky to have Daddy. Between big projects at work and keeping it together at home and taking care of me, he's been doing it all over the past two months. I know how extremely tired he's been. But every night he comes home, opens up his arms and holds me. He reminds me I'm not alone. That he's got me.

Once again, he's walked me through a storm and for that I'm very very lucky.

I heard March is Q&A month and even though these days I don't feel very interesting, reading everyone's answers today is making me feel a little like a voyeur. So if you have any questions for either Phillip or I, ask away.

17 comments:

  1. Aurora - it's so good to hear from you. I truly hope that as soon as possible you start to have more good days than bad days. I feel awful that you are in pain. And it makes me very sad that a close friend would hurt you during this time. :( I am so very happy that your Daddy is taking such wonderful care of you. You will be in my thoughts as you heal. You know, you are the very first person I reached out to when I first started exploring all of this stuff and you were so kind to help me along. Thank you so much.

    And questions

    -What is your favorite movie?
    - What is the craziest place that you and your daddy have gotten down to business?
    - What was your biggest hurdle when you decided to change up the dynamic in your marriage?

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    1. Rose,

      Thank you so much!!! You were the first comment I've ever left on any sort of forum. I was sooo nervous and shy and nearly didn't leave it, but I'm so glad I did! Thanks for helping give me the courage to stop being such a lurker. I'm so happy you are back and things are going well with you and Tom!

      And thanks for the questions. I'll answer them soon.

      hugs,
      aurora

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  2. Aurora! I am so glad to see you here. I was just thinking about you this morning, wondering how recovery is going.

    So happy that you're healing, that you have your Daddy and some great friends (even if your missing that one, sounds like she doesn't deserve your friendship, if you ask me), and at least you can see a light at the end of the tunnel!

    Hug

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    1. Thank you so much Misty for all your kind thoughts and words!!!

      And yes, one person shouldn't matter especially when there are so many amazing caring people in the world, but I can be a bit of pessimist sometimes. Trying so hard not to be.

      hugs,
      aurora

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  3. Gentle hugs and much healing energy and light to you :)

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    1. Thank you so much Faerie Wings!

      hugs,
      aurora

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  4. So pleased to read you here and glad that you are on the mend, albeit slowly.
    How has your dynamic survived over this difficult period, has it strengthened you two or been pushed to one side?
    hugs
    DF

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    1. Hi DF!

      Thank you! It is nice to be back here and wonderful to be on the 'other side now'. And thanks for the great question, I will answer it soon.

      hugs,
      aurora

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  5. Oh so good to hear you are doing better. I think you deserve a little time to be hurt and frustrated. I also think you seem to have a great outlook on your surgery and future. I hope you are back to your old self soon !
    ( no questions...just well wishes)

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    1. Thank you so much Wilma! I really am trying to have a great outlook -- some days are better than others. And your well wishes are very much appreciated :)

      hugs,
      aurora

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  6. Hello Aurora, I just wanted to tell you to take good care of yourself and I hope you feel better soon. I am so sorry that you hurt sometimes! Good luck!
    Blessings,
    Bella

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    1. Hi Bella,

      Thanks so much for stopping by and for your kind words! They mean a lot.

      hugs,
      aurora

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  7. I have missed your gentle kindness. It is so good to see you back in blog land!

    I do not have any questions at this time ... But don't you worry! I will be back! ;) ;)

    (((hugs)))

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    1. Thanks GK! And thank you so much for all your support and kindness! It's meant so much!

      hugs,

      aurora

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  8. Aurora, I'm so glad to see you post and truly hope you have far more good days than bad and that you are feeling much better soon. I'm glad you are focussing on the positive and that you Daddy is taking such great care of you.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Roz,

      Thanks for stopping by and for the kind words. They mean a lot. Things really are getting better every day!!

      hugs,

      aurora

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  9. so very glad you're on the mend - it's so very nice to see you back blogging here!

    sorry to hear about that so call friend :( ((((hugs))))

    I'm really enjoying Q&A month!

    I'd like to know what you favourite new thing has been that you both have tried since starting on this TTWD road and what is the thing at the list of what you'd like to try next!

    I guess I mean kinky things, but it doesn't have to be xx

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