Here I Am

I think the first blog post can be the hardest to write. I've written one before, on another blog in another corner of the web, but it wasn't as hard as this one. Probably because even though you won't find my real name here, this is more "me" than anything else I've ever posted online before.

So who am I? I'm a wife. I'm a mother. I'm a daughter, a sister, a friend. I'm a writer and a reader. I love chocolate, popcorn, and sleeping in. I like baking and sewing. I prefer the color pink. I wish I could sing.

But that's not why I'm here.

I'm here because I love that He is in control. I love it when He spanks me. I love sitting at His feet and feeling His fingers stroke my hair. I love hearing the words 'good girl'. I love the sight of the bruises He leaves on my skin. I love the rules He gives me. I love that He pulls my hair when I'm out of line.

I love how safe I feel cuddled into His arms.

I love being His.

I'm here because there's nobody I can tell - well nobody who would get it anyways. Except maybe for blogland. I've been lurking for a long time now, secretly reading and learning from so many amazing blogs out there, but it's getting too lonely being a lurker.

I have way more to learn than I have to offer. But here I am.